October 2010
33 posts
16.) Far far away.
Here to New York is the distance.
We played house and school and camping and all other games our young minds could come up with. We made sand cakes and climbed up the slide. We ate popsicles. You were alowed in my room with the door closed. We made some of the biggest leave piles in the fall. And drank hot chocolate after our toes froze from making a fort and beating our parents. We climbed trees...
September 2010
33 posts
“I am living the dream”
– momma hoffman
appearances matter.
smile, be nice, talk to everyone, don’t spread rumors, do not have favorites.
eff it..
you are my favorite. i only care what you think. i want to talk to you, you alone, for as long as i damn please. yes, you are nice, very nice. and i want to smile, to you, because of you, and see yours too.
at the risk of lossing it all, i love you. shhhh.
can't say i mind being kidnapped.
mother hubbard.
yes you aren’t her. THANK GOODNESS. if you were i’d spend every moment staring at the door. Scared for the day it may open and you would walk out of it. you are better. you still make me smile you still make me happy you are still here
i love you
losing her ment getting closer to you, it was worth it.
15.) I miss you.
I miss the way I called your parents mom and dad. I miss the way you always listened to me cry. I miss how you were more reserved. I miss how we sat on the floor for hours. I miss how we would laugh so hard we snorted. I miss your family and your dogs. I miss helping you do your chores. I miss never ever arguing with you. I miss your sleeping problems. I miss failing at cooking. I miss getting you...
14.) drifting
Teach me how to duggie? Because you taught me how to jerk. We texted all the time. And you annyoed me sometimes. You are cunning. And R4nD0(m), but you always cracked me up. I miss seeing you at school. And hanging out, eating your pantry. Playing games and kicking my butt. You are the bomb Jim.
loveeee,
ME
i want to just hang out in my underwear all day.
twinkle twinkle
i want to make a fort. from all my couch cushions and blankets. then cut out stars and hang them from the top. So i can lay there, looking up at my pretend sky and make all the wishes I want.
care to join me?
Get out.
Leave.
Go away.
Go far away.
Goodbye.
13.) Forgive and Forget.
I hurt you and you forgive.
You hurt me and I forgive.
That is why I add a “Best”.
in front of the word “Friends”.
When I talk about you.
-Forever and Always.
“Life is what we make it, it always has been, always will be.”
12.)))))))))))
person who has caused you the most pain.
dad, Should i say it is you? Or should I lie, just like I lie to myself most of the time?
-Me.
I have this friend...
She is a ray of sunshine in my cloudy days. But she has been broken. In more than ways than one I’ve watched her collapse. I am terrified. I am scared I’m not helping. i am scared that I cannot be that friend she needs. I cannot give her any advice because I haven’t been in that position and cannot begin to understand. She is my bestfriend. A bestfriend who may be losing her...
11.) dead and gone
We lost you before you were ever really gone. You started seeing purple trees, kept the old memories, and lost a few names. You cried. You were frail and small. Yet you were strong. You went years slowly losing yourself, knowing, but having no control. Your hair was pure white and you smiled through all your pain. You held it together untill it was time to go. It wasn’t time for you to go....
I got a glimpse of the girl I used to always be today. A girl who is insanely out of her mind with happiness and joy. A girl who has a constant smile glue to her face, and get this, it is entirely true. A girl who laughs and giggles, because she is HAPPY.
I am making it a goal. To bring that girl who inhabbited my life 24/7, back in bussiness. All day everyday. I want to be crazy happy. So I...
I hope people get some kind of wave of happiness when I smile. I am trying to spread it. Is it working?
who said it was easy? all i know is that its worth...
10.) Not enough together.
I see you. But yet again, I don’t. We laughed alot, on and on.
Now I can say I miss you, because you’ve faded.
You humor is just a whisper.
So come back into my life as headstrong as before.
Much love.
9.) Skippy the 8th.
Person I want to meet.
You are a dead man.
But your words carry on.
A childs delight. You made bright.
I want a look inside your mind.
See how it ticks.
Dear Dr. Seuss, can I please,
have a face to face?
7.) Hey, hey, hey. goodbyee excrush.
We were complicated. And hard to understand.
We argued & and you were demeaning.
You lied. And considered yourself better.
We weren’t good. But we had something.
I wish we could’ve stayed friends. But you pushed.
Now you are just a name with a memory.
I used to regret. But now I’ve just learned.
Thank you. Thank you for teaching me.
That I deserve, so much more.
Love...
6.) Stranger Danger.
I’ll smile at you in passing. It is the worldly gesture of friendly. You may think you have me figured out. But you don’t know me. So do not judge. Say hello. Smile back. You are a stranger. But you could be a friend. And in the end, That’s all that really matters.
5.) I dream a dream.
I hardly ever remember my dreams. It is depressing. So I daydream instead. I dream of bright sunshine, puppies, happy endings, bestfriends, holding hands, daisys, good grades, dancing, singing loudly, eating, laying under the open sky, sleeping in, red, smiley faces, a better dad, relaxing, my grandma, a lost friend, icecream, money, highlighters, laughter, && most of all, I dream of the...
4.) Oh brother.
Jackson,
Wow i wish that was your name. I’d tease you quite a bit. A wise old man I call grandpa once told me, that at some point, you will be all I have. And to take care of you. I’ve been listening, finally, but I think you have too. We have actually gotten along. We don’t argue, or tattle on each other anymore, and we look out for each other mainly against dad. Dick is right,...
you wonder why we never talk. There is a reason. I am scared to open my mouth around you.
